i am a flower quickly fading.
here today and gone tomorrow.
a wave tossed in the ocean.
a vapour in the wind.
purrrrpleeee.<3
12:22 AM
now its only physics. kumar said our physics results are extremely horrifying, yeah. i get the picture. got back emath paper2 today! I MADE CARELESS MISTAKES AGAIN. *pulls hair* like writing 3.75 when i know the answer is 3.25 and rounding up the numbers to 4 sig fig when i know its supposed to be 3 sig fig. MY CARELESSNESS IS ONE THING I HAVE TO OVERCOME! and sadly, i had this problem since young. haha >.< but still thank God i did relatively well for emath. yay! =D ms teo added 2 marks so i could be pushed up to the next grade.. hahaha.
was feeling so high yet so tired for the whole day. i want to stay at home and do self-study so badly!!! how i wish i could forward the time till after Os.. cos its killing my brain cells at three times the normal rate!
yes, practicals in plus minue 20 days time. and i so suck at it lah. God!! i need strength, i need brain memory the size of a windows XP, i need clever-ness to understand what the question wants, i need good bunsen burners during the exam in order for my chemicals to heat and change its state. and i need strong test tubes which are extremely heat resistant so i wont dumbly break it during the exam. ARGHHHH. but it has never happened! haha.. i feel as though my test tube is going to break whenever evan's tubes break. =/ LOL. and shvn was saying how accident prone evan was. btw if you're reading this: yes!! it really freaked me out when your CONICAL FLASK broke the other time. haha!!!
i will trust in Him even when the going gets tough ((:purrrrpleeee.<3
1:01 AM
I AM SOOO EXTREMELY WHATEVER-LY HAPPY!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. got back math paper1 today. WOO! okay, i got only 41/80 for prelim one but it shot up to 56/80 this time round. WHEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! and thats another major improvement. hopefully paper2 wont be that bad la.
and amath results were horrific, terrifying etc etc you know the rest, you get the picture. so i shant elaborate any further.
plus i wasnt chosen for physics remedial! yay.. that gives me hope already. (: im satisfied with results so far, except for english and chinese [which i didnt do quite well].
cant stop thinking about you Lord
cant stop thinking your love
cant stop thinking about what you've done for me!
[what you've done for me-planet shakers]purrrrpleeee.<3
12:42 AM
im so so so utterly disappointed with my english results. sighhhhh. like thats the lowest i got so far. not happy about it AT ALL. like i got a freakin 57 marks for ENGLISH?! its FIFTY SEVEN for crying out loud! what kind of stewpid lousy grades are those?! i flunked the compre part, had a border line pass for summary, a mere 17/30 for compo and only 20/30 for situational writing. how bad is that? sighsighsigh. thats 5 points already.
then came poa. okay, hahaha. im extremely thankful la. i PASSED!!! =DD hah! my mcq was done badly, if not i could have gotten a b4 or something? but who cares! i improved by 20 over marks.. WHEEE!! and that IS a big deal okay. of course, credits goes to my daddy God up there, val and kor!! THANKS GUYS!! think i would have fail again if they didnt tutor that clubs and societies crap la. and who says last minute chionging isnt effective! i only revised the night before the exam okay! SO ITS NOT NOT-EFFECTIVE afterall ((:
humanities! a very subtle improvement like 1 or 2 marks? but its still an improvement okay! hai, i did VERY badly for seq. but at least my geog went one grade higher? so im contented!
okay. next was chinese paper1! another border line pass. but its good enough! i studied the format only the night before. hah.. and i found more people watching russell peters! woooo! so the group of us were laughing our heads of about it for the whole lesson. blahhh. shucks la, i made a very stupid deal with raphael. =/ the one who gets the lower overall will treat the other to fish and co! xDD its a tie now!! and i have a feeling that that ninja head mugged really hard during the holidays.
i've got ONE more month to catch up! oh wells. i'll just do my best.purrrrpleeee.<3
12:17 AM
daddy and i had a tie. and my spastic brother was bragging about his "skills" but apparently his scores were way behind ours! WOO!! i havent bowled in like eons.. so 2 strikes and a spare was good enough i guess. ((: then mummy brought matilda to the kids playground [you know, those indoor ones where you slide into a pool of plastic balls] because poor her was in such a bad mood for the whole day, all thanks to the irritant aka my brother. hah.
and while we were having lunch, dad talked to me and my brother about this award scheme thingy since he's having PSLE this year and me, the dreaded Os. =/ tralalalalalala~ award rawks my OTHER sock lah! so im going to work doubly hard.. I WANT IT! but if i actually face reality, its like PLEASE OKAY. its 50% impossible? okayokay. dad wants me to pass english, math and chinese [not a problem AT ALL!] and improve by 10 marks for at least 5 subjects. then he wants my brother to score above 250 for his PSLE. blahhh. yes, did i mention what a genius my brother was? his preliminary exam results were ALL above 65 and that smarty pants never gets below 75 for math.MATH FREAK! >.< so 250 wont be so much of a challenge for him i suppose? haiyah, i shouldnt have given my best for prelim2. WASTED SIA! hahaha.
alrightey. there goes my weekend! flew passed in a blink of an eye. and its back to the mugging blues tomorrow. oh sighh. and i feel that my spiritual life is kinda going down. =( i dont know why! i dont know i dont know i dont know. just had so many things to question God about when i was reflecting 2 days ago. DONT ASK WHAT. i need you Lord in my life again.. will you be there to pick me up? will you lend me a shoulder to cry on? will you be patient and answer me?
this song touched my heart:
who and i that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name
would care to feel my hurt
who am i that the bright and morning star
would choose to light the way
for my ever-wandering heart
not because of who i am
but because of what you've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who you are
i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still you hear me when im calling
Lord you catch me when im falling
and you told me who i am,
i am yours (:
[who am i-casting crowns]purrrrpleeee.<3
8:27 AM
hah! went out with audrey before church yesterdar [saturday] and we shopped a little before going to church for youth service prac. felt soooooo uber stupid and dumb lah. DONT ASK >.< hahaha. then me, audrey and serene left early for family gathering! HAIYAH. my mum was talking about going to some japanese buffet but thy ended up eating dinner somewhere else. fickle minded adults. and then, K BOX!! ha.. yeah. that was the first time in my whole life that i've ever stepped intoo kBox. the parents booked the huge room with a huge screen and pool table!! so the younger ones [me, drey, serene, gideon, nick] were playing pool while the adults sang. SO FUN!!
went to play at the arcade too! we played some punching thing lah. haha!! dumb. the machine got jammed because of us! then nick played para para. LOL. not the pro way though. then i tried it [aiyah, anyway non of my friends would go to that arcade] and it was soo fun! but couldnt play for long cos the 5 of us selected some songs and had to rush back. 5 of us shared 4 mics!! and nick was practically singing the loudest! haha.. and he was either singing too high or too low >.< got back home only at almost 1am. TIRED and just felt like dropping dead on my bed without washing up!
going bowling at occ later! WHEEE =DD we got some vouchers. thanks to their birthdays. i haven bowled for a VERY long time.. and i sure miss bowling man!
and i will run to you
to your words of truth
not by might, not by power
but by the spirit of God
yes i will run the race
till i see your face
oh let me live in the glory of your grace.
[i will run to you-hillsongs]purrrrpleeee.<3
1:08 AM
yupp, last paper tomoorrow. AT LAST!!! hahahahha!!! accounts paper today was SHIOCK lah. i balanced the balance sheet amount! WHEEEE!!!!!!! and that is like sooo usual okay. so i've earned myself twenty marks already. HAH xDD im sooo freakin happy lah. was smiling to myself [AGAIN] when i calculated the amount. hopefully no one saw me!! so paiseh. >.< then the wind problem again. we had 2 fans [at full blast] blowing at us and the cold wind from outside came in too! think i spent like a total of 5 minutes plus putting pencils and stuff to hold my paper down?!
ooh ooh, i was carrying my book with zha ji on it while walking to the parade square this morning and i forgot the plastic bag was oily. ughh =/ so now my book has this oil stain on it. YUCK.
sighh. amath2 tomorrow. that gerald khoo fella is cursing me. tell me, is that suay or is that suay?! dumb merlion, sick thing, math freak. HAH! and i dont feel like mugging lahhhhhh.. =/purrrrpleeee.<3
5:13 AM
PRACTICALS: i said i screwed it up already. ENGLISH: pretty alright. and im happy! SOCIAL STUDIES: hah, i managed to finish the paper in time i dont think i miss out any point. EMATH1&2: think the paper was quite easy lah, compared to the top few school's papers mr chen gave me. PHYSICS: didnt really revise so i wont expect a good grade but i think prelim1 was easier! CHEM: paper was a killer! and there was this QA question in my guide book but i didnt see it! arghhh. GEOG: easy peasy! but i still dont understand mrs lim's way of marking. blahh. CHINESE: hah, what do you think?! AMATH1: didnt study!! cos i wouldnt understand anyway. and paper itself was a killer, although marthandam claimed that it'll be easy.
accounts tomorrow and amath2 on friday then GOODBYE PRELIMS! muahaha. xDD all i want is a PASS for accounts and i'll be more than happy already! and my i-want-to-go-for-3-mths-course hope is like shattering already lah. but i'll leave it to God anyway ((:
yes yes people, im on a hiatus, supposedly. but im STRESSED too okay! i need to relax after intensive accounts mugging which i almost wanted to tear the freakin paper cause i couldnt work out the answer! and guess what. ARGHHHHHH >.< it was just a careless mistake. so this is why careless people like ME cannot be an accountant if not the company's accounts book will just be so full of wrongly-written numbers.
okay, its 12.16 already. hahaha. just needed to do something to help me relax and hence the decision to blog! COS I MISS BLOGGING TRUCKLOADS! ((((((=
when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you above the storn
father you are king over the flood
i will be still and know you are God.
[Daddy God, i wanna give my all to you. i wanna be set apart for you, wanna be different from the world. i wanna trust you in the things that i do. i wanna do my best and let you do the rest. ONE life- i'll LIVE it, not LOSE it.]purrrrpleeee.<3
9:00 AM
math is making me SICK. oh yeah, but i still love it. was doing a locus question last night. oh what on earth! stewpid question confused me. and i dont know what was it asking lah. some draw circle and some 90degree condition crap! the FIRST locus question ever that made me say "HUH?!" and further more, it was this prelim paper from some bedok north sec school thing. tell me it isnt a good school please. I NEED MR CHEN HERE NOWWW!!
blahhh. potluck dinner at audrey's place later. hah, its going to be extremely chaotic. not that i hate it but.. NOISY LAH. imagine eating dinner with 6 buffalos that look alike [our fathers] and their wives [our mothers lah!]. then when you're about to take some food, you realise that the plates are already half empty. I SAID THEY WERE BUFFALOES ALREADY, greedy buffaloes to add. like as if they were over-starved and havent seen food for eons >.< mad right?! then the little kids will start running around, babies start crying cos i dont know why and we have to sit outside at the garden because obviously the HUGE tables are hogged up by the parents. okay, im carving a really bad image of my family to you guys reading this.
but of course we have our fun times too lah! think we'll prolly dig audrey's cupboard for packets of candles and start burning up their whole garden! big kids, play with the candles and sparkles. young ones, get your electronic superman lantern and please KEEP THE MUSIC DOWN! its irritating. hah! think the cousins will start sticking candles all around the outside of the house. HAVOCness. hai. i pity audrey's maid. she's going to have a hard time clearing up the mess. hopefully they'll play card games again. and the most important:MOONCAKES! lalalas~ better gobble up whatever mooncakes i see before the buffaloes lay their hands on them. xDD
hiatus starts again.purrrrpleeee.<3
2:24 PM
dinner was fantabulous! we had space to sit with the parents for the FIRST time i tell you. everyone grabbed the salted chicken! hah.. thank goodness there wasnt any vegeterian dishes tonight. because everything was soooo meaty lah. =DD
then me, serene and audrey walked to the mama shop to get candles. yeah, its 6 packs of candles mind you. so the three of us plus gideon and nick went to the playground to play. the dong dongs wanted to set up a base fire thingy initially but CRAP the wind okay. it was getting in the way of our little fire base. then the 5 of us started dancing and singing our butts of around the fire. haha!! like some tribal dance thingything until we realised we made ourselves look like FOOLS. hah!
gave up after a long time of trying. played with candles instead and we set up a part of the playground with full of candles, lame but fun still.then nick climbed up to the roof and set up this mini fire using around 6 candles?! oh goshh. silly donkey! the roof was PLASTIC i would like to point out. GONG xDD they were then putting the candles on the roof, standing up of course. only nick's candles were not. and yes, you guess it already huh? ROOF HAD A LOBANG! and it got bigger he blew off the fire. HAH. the best part: we heard sirens! POLICE. so all of us were like: AHHHHH~~ *runs* POLICE COMING!! QUICKKK!!!!! and audrey had to run back to get her toy turtle. LOL.
going to have a second round at my mother's side's cousin's place tomorrow. YAY! =DDpurrrrpleeee.<3
8:57 AM
and that means 5 days left. HAHA!!
exams were quite alright. except for chinese and chemistry. blahhh... i reckon i'd get a decent c6. oh well, but who cares. as long as i've done my best la. and of course, its really mentally tiring okay. felt sooo drained out yesterday so i didnt really touch my chinese book. thank goodness i studied a little during the holidays. yup (: compo today was BAD lah. out of 3 questions, there was only one i could read and understand properly. oh what on earth.
HAH! i discovered this: THE "STALKER" IN SCHOOL IS ACTUALLY A CHRISTIAN. christian stalkers. weird huh? or rather, christians who havent got anything to do, they go around stalking people and making christianity sound as if its all about STALKING. [ignore this para if you dont understand what im talking about, just had to say this out. HAHAHA!!]
and and and, there was this guy who sent me a mail yesterday [i knew him cos we had afew chats on msn LAST TIME] saying that he wanted to meet up with me and he added $200 after that sentence. if you innocent or rather, ACT innocent people dont know what it means.. then forget it!! okay and as i was saying, i was sooooo angryyy!!!! so i decided to reply him and give him a good lecture. ahhhh, but i cant find the mail i replied anywhere in my account. but it was something like: WHAT? do i look that cheap to you? do you think girls [talking about those who are not loose] would actually be so stupid to meet up with a stranger only after a few chats? and if you dont know, the answer is NO. not at all. i guess they wont even step outta the house if you offer them a million. go get a life, seriously. wanna try another alternative? why not try geylang? you'll have more than you will ever want to satisfy your sick fetish for such low-down things that you do that i DESPISE. and then, that jerk didnt reply ever again! muahahha.. xDD idiotic right? feel like going right down to slap his stinking face. ughhhh!!!!
im going to take a longggg nap and start chionging tonight again. hopefully revision tonight will be fruitful. cos if it isnt, that means i was slacking lah. wah lao. hahaha..purrrrpleeee.<3
4:13 PM
okay, i screwed up my practicals. didnt understand what the physics question was trying to ask and my chemistry!!!!! STOOPID SOLID X! they told us to heat it strongly and so i added the correct amount and heated it strongly for like, 15minutes?! but still, it didnt have any visible change. UGHHHH. i ended up not completing the paper cos i had no time >.< but i've tried my best so i'll let God do the rest!
went for lunch with the 4o3 and 4o4 girls [most of us] at the coffeeshop behind school then was suppose to play badminton with meiyan and the rest but i didnt bring any shirt or whatever so didnt join them. went to jocelyn's house together with nana-nathan, shvn-nathan and lishy-nathan to play with her dog!! AWWWW!!! *pinch pinch* her puppy was soooo small and kewttt!!!!! haha.. and it was extremely lazy too. =/ we reached her place all drenched up so all of us had to borrow a shirt from her. LOL. so after bummin around, playing with the puppy and pillow fought, we went home lah [DUH].
english paper tomorrow! hahahahahahahahhahhaahhahahhahahah =DDDD another not-so-tensed-up day. ooohooohoooh, and im going to psycho myself to stay away of the comp and drill that "the-comp-is-sooo-boring" thing into my head.
not to us but your name be the glory (:purrrrpleeee.<3
3:20 AM
OVERDUED TAG REPLIES [okay, or at least i think it is] chris: hahaha!! welcome. (: huiyi: blur queen!!!! i thought i told you before? *shakes head* serene: yes, now you know!!! but take care of those eye rings la, they'll go outta hand! brandon: aye, you can study during the day what! hahaha.. uh wait, someone spent too much time sleeping until theres no more time left for studing? xDD cat: yeah!!! too bad she's on hiatus la.. >.< AHHH!!!! i miss blogging soooo badly x( was facing my oh-so-boring and dry textbook facts until i had no time for blogging. but its weekends! so i've got the time. ooh ooh ooh.. was burning the midnight oil for the whole of this holidays and i decided to try something new yesterday! okay, i would usually mug till 5, the latest. but OOH LALA~ record was BROKEN yesterday! drey came over to stay and both of us mugged from 10pm till 9am the next day. =DD no, we're not crazy. and we're not that strong either.. cos we survived by eating fries and laughing to keep us awake. and its REALLY laughing by cracking some lame jokes and yah, its the same-frequency type of jokes lah.of course, im as tired as a fill-in-the-blanks. so im going to hit the sack after blogging ((: im happy with the way i am now. im a happier girl without YOU. i warned you about the choice you made, but you wouldnt listen! sooo, stop wallowing in self-pity/self depression since you were the one who was stubborn. why devote yourself to something you know wont last forever? why "give up the whole world" just for that one person who you ASSUMED would be your "significant other"? do you think its worth it? God will never honour a group who chooses to compromise. purrrrpleeee.<3
8:36 AM
RANDOMSwhy do people hate xiaxue so much?is she really that bitchy in your point of view?or are you jealous prudes just plain jealous of her talent?still, why do they have to spit out those ugly comments to her kins/friends?is this the price to pay for being well-known?I WANT XIAXUE NOT TO GO ON A HIATUS!!!!because her blog is so fantabulously written (:alright alright. taking a break from all that muggin!! and those dark eye rings of mine are showing, all because i mugged till 4 last night and my noisy brother was yelling at 9 this morning. blahhh. HEY! im proud that i studied till 4 okay! HAHAHA xDD mugging-cos im going to ace those subjects and beat them down!purrrrpleeee.<3
12:51 AM
prelim2 timetable:
12sep- phy/chem practicals
13sep- english
14sep- social studies & emath1
15sep- chem
16sep- chinese
19sep- geog
20sep- emath2 & amath1
21sep- phy & chem/phy mcq
22sep- poa
23sep- amath2
please keep me in prayers!! thanks.. (:
i'll do my best and let God do the rest!purrrrpleeee.<3
11:12 PM
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEPTEMBER BABIES:
`christian russell buenaventura dela cruz [jing yang] HAHAHA xDD
`MUMMY!!
`gideon [my brother lah]
`shirley!!
`nick
`DADDY!!
yupp.. my family is like so filled with september babies! only matilda and myself are born in different months. alrightey.. im going to hit the sack. ate too much and im TIRED. =/
WWJD-what would Jesus do? (:purrrrpleeee.<3
2:55 AM
SUNDAY SCHOOL IS OVERR!! the two kiddos again, playing at the park. ((: and its see-saw time! the two cuties vs big FAT brandon!!! 
purrrrpleeee.<3
7:57 AM
THE KIDDOS [michelle and matilda]-they were sooo camera shy! purrrrpleeee.<3
7:55 AM
slept in till lunch this afternoon. hah! you can guess how i tired i was lah.. then studied for the whole afternoon [which is an usual sight for a bummer like me]. but of course, i took frequent breaks.. hahaha.. and now im so very tired! yeapp.. i did myself a huge and pretty prelim2 timetable and stuck in on the wall so it'll make me err, more kan chiong [?!] and study harder? blahhh. >.< covered mainly math, physics and a little bit of chinese [reluctantly] today.. and i've counted! finished 10 physics papers and 8 emath papers in all!! *jumps madly* think i was never so hardworking all my life.. hahaha xDD
oh yes. theres 2 really cool blog sites i found! first up: webcomics posted on a blog by 2 students who expresses their view of sec sch life in comic strips that they draw themselves. veryyyyyy hilarious and entertaining!! but dont mind the language, a little you-know-what.[www.studentssketchpad.blogspot.com] number2: xiaxue, the girl who won the best blogger award! whoa, her english is sooooo WOW. and she blogs about lots of funny stuff and her-point-of-view kinda things. yupp.. very cool. [www.xiaxue.blogspot.com]
ahhhhhh!!!! >.< i feel like being frank and telling you how i feel, face to face!! why are you so annoying?! why cant you stop it!! *rolls eyes* why cant you stop complaining to your friend?? why cant you tell that you're soooooo extremely irritating! i've got the urge to tell you the truth, straight in the face! and apparently only person i think would be able to help me has gone crazy!! hahaha.. so i'll drop the idea.
alrights. tired already.. tata! (:purrrrpleeee.<3
7:15 AM