Thursday, June 28, 2007
TWO frustrations blew at once. its so damn irritating and i cant take it anymore. ive always been a girl who would feel bitter/frustrated/angry bout stuff, then either keep it to myself and sleep it away or complain/tell to someone whom im really close to. but it seems to me that it doesnt work long term. what if history repeats? am i gonna keep having to sleep it off or complain without voicing out?
im afraid of voicing everything out cus people might not think like me, or they'll go "okay, we'll look into that matter, yadayadayada!" but nothing ever seems to be done, or even so, they'll think im being REBELLIOUS. discussions in a big group no longer mean much to me unless there are quite afew who thinks like me.
but to those who were willing to lend a listening ear or gave me hugs:
i really appreciated it. and im sorry if i didnt reply any of you, was just not in the mood to talk.
well, these two things are regarding church and my web multimedia fac (whatever his name is, i still cant remember after 8 weeks. and i dont really bother to.) + W65M. if you think youre gonna get affected by it, then dont worry. you wont have to "accidently" read it or something. cus im gonna do you a big favour, and that is to change the font to black, the same colour of my background. but if youre still gonna read it, then theres nothing i can do.
church: i HATE being disappointed very very very much. especially when im excited bout going somewhere, doing something and people come telling me ive to go back to church cus the pastor wants to say something important. why does it have to be in such a short notice? now all the plans ive made, it has to be disrupted. all the people i told them i'd be going, im gonna have to go back on my word. why are things and timings done only to accomodate the schedule of the person speaking and not also to us? why cant an email with all the details typed be sent out instead? isnt it much easier to refer back to the mail? even if we sit, listen and take down notes, we might not be able to catch them all. i feel its unfair to me. telling me something that's so last minute, and not knowing how i'll feel and having all my hopes dashed and the trouble of making changes. i know, being submissive is important. im not saying there's anything wrong with it. but i have my own rights, make my own stand and say my piece. i know people are gonna read this, they're definitely gonna pass it on, and the leaderS will approach me to "talk" to me. and what happens? i'll probably feel to intimidated and pressurised so nothing comes out of my mouth. some may not agree with what i feel, but this is just my own opinion. ive really had enough. its time i said something, and not be too nice so people wouldnt trample over me or set expectations beyond my abilities.school: this is what you added in everyone's team comments...Dear W65M,
It has come to my attention and some of your classmates have brought it up to me as well. The reason we change team and groups is because you are supposed to get used to working with people of all traits, personalities and skills as in the real life situation. The solution is to identify each other's strength within a team and allocate his/her task from there. In this way, you actually demonstrate good teamwork rubrics.Remember , Aware, Adjust and Adapt.
However, i think there is some form of discrimination going on in the class. Its high time i take some action. YOU ARE TO WORK WITHIN YOUR ALLOCATED TEAM. THATS YOUR FIRST PRIORITY, THEN COMES YOUR FRIENDS IN OTHER TEAMS... and of course dont give the answers, some of you were even doing the flash for your friend. How will it justify your position as someone who taught when both of you are awarded the same grades? Please guide as in give them the possible solutions, explain to them what it means and matters.!!!!
I wil be looking into the matter seriously. Please refrain from seeking help outside your team. and please help your teamates. There is no way there will ne one team has members who do not know anything. thank You.
i know exactly who youre refering to. yang chao, lai shuai and jia jie. and it has also come to my attention that youre pretty PMSy and you dont listen to both side of the story before jumping to your own stupid conclusions. after a year in RP, we all know what the constant changing of teams are for. sadly, 3 of them are china students and thats why you think there's discrimination going on? then i beg to differ. if we wanted to discriminate, we would have done it to all of them. but why isnt jin, taohua and wang qian "discriminated" as well? whats wrong with asking our other classmates? besides, we only seek help from them when they're pretty much done with their work. yes, main priority should be within the team. but is it wrong to not bother a team mate who is still struggling with his/her work but instead seek help from someone who is finished with theirs? how about our point of view (or rather, mine.)? is it right that a team mate doesnt do anything at all (not even discuss or ask questions with us) for the whole day? is it right to not touch a single thing and then go back to the hostel to sleep until 30 min before the presentation then struggle? they think we've not been helping them. but the fact is that they've not been helping themselves. they dont ask, they dont contribute. and they want us to help them when we ourselves are already short of time and struggling to complete our own part? jia jie does nothing but boss around, he's the infamous CEO of the class. lai shuai only asks to see out final ppt slides and he comes back 30 min before the presentation starts. is that a reason to complain about him not knowing how to do anything? and yang chao. she talks so softly and mumbles in chinese.. i cant hear a thing. plus the most ive seen her do is blindly copy a whole chunk of information and paste it into the ppt, not knowing what that chunk means.
well, i guess part of it has to be the problem crafter's fault. so much to do, so little time. and you always rush us to quickly finish our work, then question the mediocre quality of our work? i understand if its just our class. but it seems like many of the classes face the same problem.
