Thursday, June 28, 2007

TWO frustrations blew at once. its so damn irritating and i cant take it anymore. ive always been a girl who would feel bitter/frustrated/angry bout stuff, then either keep it to myself and sleep it away or complain/tell to someone whom im really close to. but it seems to me that it doesnt work long term. what if history repeats? am i gonna keep having to sleep it off or complain without voicing out?

im afraid of voicing everything out cus people might not think like me, or they'll go "okay, we'll look into that matter, yadayadayada!" but nothing ever seems to be done, or even so, they'll think im being REBELLIOUS. discussions in a big group no longer mean much to me unless there are quite afew who thinks like me.

but to those who were willing to lend a listening ear or gave me hugs: i really appreciated it. and im sorry if i didnt reply any of you, was just not in the mood to talk.

well, these two things are regarding church and my web multimedia fac (whatever his name is, i still cant remember after 8 weeks. and i dont really bother to.) + W65M. if you think youre gonna get affected by it, then dont worry. you wont have to "accidently" read it or something. cus im gonna do you a big favour, and that is to change the font to black, the same colour of my background. but if youre still gonna read it, then theres nothing i can do.

church: i HATE being disappointed very very very much. especially when im excited bout going somewhere, doing something and people come telling me ive to go back to church cus the pastor wants to say something important. why does it have to be in such a short notice? now all the plans ive made, it has to be disrupted. all the people i told them i'd be going, im gonna have to go back on my word. why are things and timings done only to accomodate the schedule of the person speaking and not also to us? why cant an email with all the details typed be sent out instead? isnt it much easier to refer back to the mail? even if we sit, listen and take down notes, we might not be able to catch them all. i feel its unfair to me. telling me something that's so last minute, and not knowing how i'll feel and having all my hopes dashed and the trouble of making changes. i know, being submissive is important. im not saying there's anything wrong with it. but i have my own rights, make my own stand and say my piece. i know people are gonna read this, they're definitely gonna pass it on, and the leaderS will approach me to "talk" to me. and what happens? i'll probably feel to intimidated and pressurised so nothing comes out of my mouth. some may not agree with what i feel, but this is just my own opinion. ive really had enough. its time i said something, and not be too nice so people wouldnt trample over me or set expectations beyond my abilities.

school: this is what you added in everyone's team comments...
Dear W65M,
It has come to my attention and some of your classmates have brought it up to me as well. The reason we change team and groups is because you are supposed to get used to working with people of all traits, personalities and skills as in the real life situation. The solution is to identify each other's strength within a team and allocate his/her task from there. In this way, you actually demonstrate good teamwork rubrics.Remember , Aware, Adjust and Adapt.
However, i think there is some form of discrimination going on in the class. Its high time i take some action. YOU ARE TO WORK WITHIN YOUR ALLOCATED TEAM. THATS YOUR FIRST PRIORITY, THEN COMES YOUR FRIENDS IN OTHER TEAMS... and of course dont give the answers, some of you were even doing the flash for your friend. How will it justify your position as someone who taught when both of you are awarded the same grades? Please guide as in give them the possible solutions, explain to them what it means and matters.!!!!
I wil be looking into the matter seriously. Please refrain from seeking help outside your team. and please help your teamates. There is no way there will ne one team has members who do not know anything. thank You.
i know exactly who youre refering to. yang chao, lai shuai and jia jie. and it has also come to my attention that youre pretty PMSy and you dont listen to both side of the story before jumping to your own stupid conclusions. after a year in RP, we all know what the constant changing of teams are for. sadly, 3 of them are china students and thats why you think there's discrimination going on? then i beg to differ. if we wanted to discriminate, we would have done it to all of them. but why isnt jin, taohua and wang qian "discriminated" as well? whats wrong with asking our other classmates? besides, we only seek help from them when they're pretty much done with their work. yes, main priority should be within the team. but is it wrong to not bother a team mate who is still struggling with his/her work but instead seek help from someone who is finished with theirs? how about our point of view (or rather, mine.)? is it right that a team mate doesnt do anything at all (not even discuss or ask questions with us) for the whole day? is it right to not touch a single thing and then go back to the hostel to sleep until 30 min before the presentation then struggle? they think we've not been helping them. but the fact is that they've not been helping themselves. they dont ask, they dont contribute. and they want us to help them when we ourselves are already short of time and struggling to complete our own part? jia jie does nothing but boss around, he's the infamous CEO of the class. lai shuai only asks to see out final ppt slides and he comes back 30 min before the presentation starts. is that a reason to complain about him not knowing how to do anything? and yang chao. she talks so softly and mumbles in chinese.. i cant hear a thing. plus the most ive seen her do is blindly copy a whole chunk of information and paste it into the ppt, not knowing what that chunk means.
well, i guess part of it has to be the problem crafter's fault. so much to do, so little time. and you always rush us to quickly finish our work, then question the mediocre quality of our work? i understand if its just our class. but it seems like many of the classes face the same problem.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

ikea and queensway with my other-other half today! hoho.((:
met drey at j8, got my greys and wanted to get some tops but i was kinda tight.
so i skipped it, for this month. x)
then we headed down to queensway to shop and theres actually many nice stuff there!
now that ive seen more nice stuff, i wanna get them!
but im soooo utterly broke. urghhhh.
then down to ikea for meatballs since it was just nearby.
my beloved delicious meatballs! and the really cute stuff in ikea that makes me wanna buy them all!

so anyway as usual we'd talk, laughed and be social embarrassments.
embarrassing each other by doing retarded awkward stuff in public and err, i always accidently make drey talk to herself. HAHAHA.
and we talked bout lotsa random stuff.
from people, friends to childhood!
like how we used to be stupid enough to melt cheese by putting it on a PLASTIC bowl and putting the bowl into the TOASTER.
or how we didnt recognise each other when we first saw each other in uniforms.
or how we used to have fetishes for weird stuff.
and so many other stuff which we once thought were "cool".

the things i wanna get now:
-more bangles!
-nike dunks
-grey sweater
-my tops
-polka dot tote
-black plain flip flops
-mphosis slippers
-brown pants
AIYOOOOOOOO!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

grace: haha. yah mannnn!

because i wasnt feeling well, i decided to stay in bed and rest then go for UT in the afternoon. plus by resting at home i'll probably be able to study more. dragged myself to school in the afternoon feeling all weak and having the least confidence in today's UT although i "studied" for it. =/ and met joanne and yiting on the way to school. hurhur. both never go school also!

it was still terrible anyway! i hope they do a major moderation! i kept reading through the 6Ps but i still didnt really fully understand it. IP addresses, subnet masks, binaries, blablablabla. so i conclude that data comms UT2 = DIE!

out of the 4 modules im taking:
data communications and networking: SEMI-BUANGed
java: 100% BUANGed
database systems: SEMI-BUANGed
web multimedia: MY ONE AND ONLY HOPEEEEEE. x)
this is horrid. :(
many or almost all girls dont do well in IT. its so trueeee. i cant wait to do business and take my electives next year!

i need moolahs for retail therapy please?

Monday, June 25, 2007

http://www.createdtoworship.podomatic.com/

this is sooooo cool! :DDD
the sermon by andrew yeo during the camp is uploaded already.
i can still imagine him talking and us laughing.
RETARDEDLY FUNNY!

and i hope he's gonna upload the rest of the sermons i missed. (((((:
heh heh.

im calling in sick. =/
felt abnormally cold in school when everyone else felt hot.
urghhhhhh!
and i havent finished revising for data comms UT.
stupid IP addresses, testing my binary skills mannnn!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

serene: hahahaha! i never even see before la! =/


WMD camp was gooooooood! (:
the only thing i regretted was not being able to stay for the full three days.
because of schooooool. tiring shkul that drained out all the energy from me.
but i still enjoyed everything i experienced there.
the atmosphere, the fellowship, the sessions by andrew yeo and his horridly funny jokes, and of course the enthusiasm we all had!
it was so fun jumping and not being embarrassed by the people around cus everyone was jumping and being crazy too!
usually we'll be so self conscious but im glad we werent.
and i hope this wont be another spiritual high.
but everything we've learnt from this camp will stay foreverrrr.

oh, and i really loved the aunties who cooked! =p
they always whip up good food for us!
we had speg and meatballs from ikea yesterday.
and last camp we had apple strudel and the choc fountain.
very very very sinful. tsk tsk.
but is goods! :D

Friday, June 22, 2007

grace: heh? really?
evan: serious? haha. so cool la! i love porky man. x)
xy: and elaine also! HAHA. no la, at least we dont use the camera to take pictures of girls. unlike sy! so pervertic man.

heh heh. im still at home. and will probably go back to camp tomorrow.
cus im sooooo dead tired. =/

went down yesterday after school.
and apparently i only fell asleep at 1 plus i think?
i dont know why, but i just couldnt sleep.
then i was supposed to wake up at 715, cause the rest of them will finish bathing by then and report at the sanctuary at 730!
but i ended up waking up at 6 plus cus waking the pigs up woke me up too!
people were talking, laughing, lights were on brightly, and jk using her one and only method to wake people up. HAHAHAHAHA! by playing loud music loudly and putting in near their ears. hahahahaha!
i ended up bathing at 730, left church at 755, reached school at 850!
and i thought i was gonna get a late attendance since it was after 845.
buttttttttt, God was sooooo good! x)
it turned out that the fac only marked attendance at 9 plus.
which meant the attendance list hasnt been submitted yet.
which also means i was marked present, not late.
YAYYYYYY! :DDD

but i was so tired for the whole day.
they were like "wah, why you look so tired today?"
haha.
plus i actually fell asleep while looking at jay doing java. my goooooshhhh!
not that i didnt wanna do anything kay! i opened eclipse, did a bit, realised that i needed eclipse to do it but by the time i finished installing it, the fac went far ahead already. =/
so i just watched jay do and tried to understand what he was doing.
it should be okay with some revision!

all that tiredness made me really grumpy and easily aggitated. urghhhh.
so i went home after school and slept till now, 10pm.
and i feel happier! ((((:

Thursday, June 21, 2007

serene: cash converters?! u mean they sell cashiers?
jk: HAHA! whoaaaa, runs in our LG blood man! haha.

tuesday's web multimedia was pretty fun! :D we all became shu yuans for the day. heh heh. photography with the DLSR! and it reminds me of how retarded i was when i had to shoot photos during connection 33:3 with sheep's SLR. =/

anyways, we were supposed to learn how to use the DLSR, photoshop the pictures nicely then create our own photo galleries online, upload it onto the school server. so many things to do yet so little time la! we ended up presenting only at 3 plus instead of 2.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

i cant believe its the last day of holidays! sighhhhhhhhh. :(
back to school, back to early mornings, back to RJs, back to zhek zhek zhek uncle, back to java, but back to seeing people i love! :D

i WANTED to get home after church today to revise for java. yeah, wanted. dad ended up picking us up after church then we went down to his yakun to surprise my mum cus she was helping out today, shorthanded. and before i knew, i spent my whole day there! eating anything from their menu whenever i feel like (hoho. machiam food is free there!) and walked around the shopping mall at times with the 2 younger nuisance tagging with me cus apparently the crowds came in and there wasnt enough space for us. oh, and dad asked me to learn how to operate the cashier so i could help out. and it was pretty fun! =p

my "childhood dream come true" at last. haha. like the times me and serene wanted to be cashiers so badly when we were young, dying to press the buttons on the cashier machine thingy! and i used to get excited when i saw toy cashiers that had the scanner, and the money drawer thingy. heh heh.

oh, last thing.. I STILL CANT BELIEVE HOLIDAYS ARE OVERRRRR! :(

Saturday, June 16, 2007

command:
SELECT *
FROM my_brains
WHERE java is stored

results:
ERROR IN SEARCH!
:((((

String Name = Console.readString ();

System.out.println("Dear " +Name);
System.out.println("Start programming java into that brain of yours or else youre gonna fail fail fail!);

Friday, June 15, 2007

look what i found! :DDDD
http://www.phobialist.com/reverse.html

and people who came into my mind were:
azlan: Clowns- Coulrophobia.
me: Hospitals- Nosocomephobia.
me and pat: Pain- Algiophobia
me: Injections- Trypanophobia.
me AGAIN: Needles- Aichmophobia
jazlina: Ants- Myrmecophobia.
yulin: Kissing- Philemaphobia (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)
shirley: Open high places- Aeroacrophobia
nas: Vegetables- Lachanophobia.

and HOW ON EARTH CAN ANYONE BE SCARED OF THIS?!
Color purple- Porphyrophobia.

hahaha. poor fella, get scared even before he knows what phobia he's suffering from!
Words, long- Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia

Monday, June 11, 2007

zx: yeah i miss you man! =p
vell: welcomeeeee.(:

i dont feel happy.
i havent felt like my normal self for the past few days.
and i dont know why. :(
nothings really bothering me, nothings really hurting me.
but im just not happy deep down inside.

i need a hug, a shoulder and alot of someone's patience.
i wish for a getaway, far far away.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Thursday, June 07, 2007

nurimah: hahaha you were there?! so super retarded laaa! :D
grace: yeah i know! he called you right?(:

THIS IS SOOOOOO IRRITATINGGGG! :(
my wireless still doesnt connect together with the stupid singtel one! sighhhh.
went back to IT helpdesk today to get my run advert prog done.
AND IS WORKS NOWS! :D
but the damn wireless is soooo not working! and keeps disconnecting and disconnecting i dont know how many million times in an hour! urghhhhh.
this sucks la. :(
and im sooooo pissed!

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k la k la... thanks for following me pat! (:
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Monday, June 04, 2007

town with pat and vik today! vik was on a major shopping spree! and i was on the hunt for jackets and bags, but didnt really see any nice ones.

anyways, met them at supposedly 230 but they were late also so we only met at 3pm. vik saw me, and i walked towards them, then stood right infront of lazaroo the dodo bird but he didnt see me although i was less than 5 cm infront of him! damn sotong. im not that short can! :( so we walked around, helped vik pick some clothes.. like some makeover show man. hahahah.

oh, we went to get famous amos cookies. pat smelled his way to the shop. YES YOU DID! like dog can. they bought the 300 grams double choc cookie thingy which was like really dark and pat went "eh vik, careful ar. dont bite your own finger!" hahahahaha. so horrid! and we went to catch shrek 3! yes yes, i watched it with the class during our class outing but they wanted to watch it also and i didnt mind watching it again. super cute la that show.

after that went to HMV to walk around cus the rest of the shops in hereen was already closed. and we saw this on the shelf..........



after that vik went home and pat nicely and sweetly offered to send me home since it was getting a little late and he didnt drive, plus he lives no where near to me. awww! so he accompanied me home all the way home and continued entertaining me. thankssss!((:

Sunday, June 03, 2007

grace: yeah, its like that one! imagine how much hair i lost while trying to tie. =/

friday wasnt even like a friday! i went to school for the sake of attendance but gave up halfway! grrrr. was dead tired on friday morning, dragged myself to school and apparently the whole school was in holiday mood! haha. so W65M was discussing to pon friday's lesson. initially most wanted to pon, but only some ponned in the end. one of which was yours truly. =p there goes, i cant pon java anymoreeeeee!

anyways, went for first breakout and the best of the best happened...........

went back to class, spent my whole time playing some really retarded games, msned, and then finally decided to pon together with jason and jay. so we went to the library to reformat our laggy laptops. must be the influence from charlynn! yes! so now my laptop is fast and clean and nice now but there's just two little itsy bitsy problems: where's my run advertised programmes?!?!?!?! and my wireless thingy is kinda bad. i dont know what happened! it became like that after i downloaded the run advert from myrp IT web. =/

sooooo this means ive gotta go back to IT helpdesk tomorrow. oh sighhh.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE! :DDD

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