evan: i've relinked you alr! and wah lau! to think you'll actually try over feeding my fish!!! yea, it doesnt die, which is good. but no fun. hahaha.. plus it doesnt do funny actions like your hedgehog when being clicked too many times. =/

emath2 tomorrow! its giving me a BIG headache man, seriously. i think im feeling slightly feverish.. BOO!!! my "heavy head" is pulling my down down down! praying that i'll feel better by tomorrow morning lah.. i still need strength, energy and alertness to wreck those brains of mine ya know samantha.

btw "you", im sorry if i was a little "mean" to you these few days. i used to think it was just ME but i realised it was YOU. seriously, i think it'll be better if you could like actually stop "playing the piano to the cow" [means talking to someone about something that person WONT and DONT understand]. i struggled so hard to get piano and instrument related stuff outta my mind [im not referring to church instruments btw] yet YOU keep telling me about it. its not that i wont be a listening ear to you but can you see tht i never fail to get bored everytime you start singing and telling me about your music stuff? yes, i dont appreciate classicals and operas. i dislike reading piano notes and learning piano related stuff so why do you not understand that? im sure you've realised through therse years of our friendship that the only think i dislike about when we're together is when you start explaining and mentioning to me about your stuff. PLEASE, do us all a big favour and save your breathe explaining those details. cause its getting VERY irritating. and i dont know if you're "acting/pretending" blur but it ALWAYS seems to me that you actually are. WHY? you're always going like: go band must act maturely and set a good examples to the younger ones. but why infront of everyone else do you react in a childish manner and think its funny? its so, ughhhh. and im VERY SURE you can tell that im ignoring you at times when you react this way. really, its getting on my nerves. i finally realised that everything is not right. our human frequencies are totally different! we think differently, very. when we think its so funny, you sit there and stone. i just found out that all band people are like that. okay, maybe im just stereotyping but all the band members that i know of are like that. i REALLY thank God i didnt give in to my daddy and join band in sec1. when i interact with carina and the rest, the feeling is like totally different! its like so much more relaxing and fun but when im with you i have to tolerate you thinking and stuff. no, i dont mind. but when your insensitive words of discrimination to others set in, i REALLY cannot tolerate that. have it ever occured to you that it'll hurt others? it seems like a no to me. please once again, do something. i dont know if you'll read this but i feel much better saying it out. *breathes out*(:

Lord, i pray that u will cover Sam wif ur precious blood and remove this feverish symptom right now in Jesus name! thanks a lot xiaona! hah.